“One day, many years from now when you realize what you’ve lost - you will search for me. Perhaps you’ll email me but there’ll be no reply; or maybe you’ll call my number but it will have changed…. And when you give up trying to find me physically, you’ll search for me emotionally. You’ll try to find someone else who will love you like I did or make you laugh as much as I used to … but you’ll soon realize there’s nobody else quite like me… I was unique… I was the one for you - and you lost me. And you will try so desperately to find traces of me in every soul you meet for the rest of your days ….but you will never ever find me.””— Ranata Suzuki
“And after everything that has happened, after all the tears & heartbreak & screams is it wrong for me to hope that I’ll be the one you never stop loving. The one you think of late at night when you’re with her and for a moment when she touches you, you think of the way I use to touch you. Do you think I can be the girl that you will love until your last breath, the one who you tell every girl that “I will always be in love with her.” before you start a new relationship? Will I be the girl that you think of time to time wondering what I’m doing and who I’m doing it with? Will I be the face you see from time to time in the market and for a moment your heart stops and your breath get shorter and shorter until you realize it’s just another women with my hair color? Will I be the girl that you call your first love or one true love 60 years from now? After everything that has happened will I still mean something to you? Or will I just be another pretty face in the sea of women you’ve been with? Tell me, did it mean anything? It had to of meant something to you.. it had to. Please tell me it meant something to you cause it meant the world to me..”
Deeply Feeling Series// via @promisesofamazing
“Tell me why you did it. So maybe I can understand, forgive and forget you.”—
“And i hope that when it’s 3am and i cross your mind, you feel like you jumped off the highest building and your ribs crack from the fall. And I hope when restlessness is your only companion, you think of me. And as you think of me you realise the beauty of heartbreak, the beauty that I felt for years. And I hope you fall into piles of regrets and break the spine you never had, and I hope you rummage through your closet looking for pieces of me when someone asks how I’m doing. And I hope you find my first hand written letter to you and you get poisoned with the sweetness and genuineness of the words. And i hope your wounds remain raw long enough for you to realise, to never break another heart, to never betray another love. And I hope that you stare into your reflection in the mirror and you see a tear streaking down your cheek. And I hope that your inflated pride shatters from the weariness of your soul and I hope that the next person that comes to your life, keeps you in your place, unlike me. I hope she doesn’t make the same mistakes that I did.”— i wish you hell
i just cant understand how after i was fully going to break up with you after you lied about something much smaller you then had the fucking audacity after you begged me to stay with you to cheat on me constantly for an entire year
like imagine if you just said you were sorry for hurting me maybe then i would stop fucking blaming myself everyday for messing everything up
i just will never understand how after everything i opened up to you about you could do what you did to me and then forget about it so quickly
it’s literally been over a year and i still wake up in the middle of night having a panic attack because of how badly you hurt me
“We hooked up when you were lonely and sad. That’s why you started “loving” me.”— Things I realized too late
i still have nightmares about you cheating on me :)
Maybe its just right person wrong timing, or maybe im just too fucked up to be loved by anyone
“I watched as your addiction consumed you and turned you into a monster. Your loving words turned into hateful actions. I watched as you became angry at the world until your substances were the only thing that mattered anymore. Nothing was good enough for you, and nothing could save you… not even me.”— Jayme Bigger
“It meant nothing” does not make things better. Because if you cheated on me with someone you genuinely thought was your soulmate, which made you realize I wasn’t, then I can’t truly be that mad at you for pursuing that assuming I genuinely care about your life happiness, which I do. But if you cheated on me with a random girl you met at a bar, who you had no intention of seeing again and who you’d never want a future with and didn’t even find attractive, that’s just a clear cut case of me not being enough for you.
im so over it but i rly don’t think anyone will ever understand how badly the cheating fucked me up
““I love you” “Stop saying that like it’s some kind of excuse for what you did. You knew damn well what you were risking the moment your lips touched hers. And now it feels like everything that came out of your mouth was a lie. And that’s the scariest part of it all. That this whole time you could have been lying to me when all I was was honest.””— Broken breakup conversations
(- @beautyinbrokenbones )